Trust

I don't know how. I do not know how to stop trying to figure things out on my own and trust that I serve a God who is capable.

If anyone has any pearls for me on this front, PLEASE, I am open to hearing what you do to let go. I am constantly trying to figure EVERYTHING out on my own. I don't like being still. I don't like not knowing what will happen. I don't like not having direction.

Maybe it has more to do with Proverbs 3:6 than I know how to live out. I don't think I currently acknowledge God in all things, so I'm not really giving Him a chance to direct my path. I certainly don't live out the preceding verse...hence the point of this blog!

How do you trust Him wholly? How do I not lean on my understanding, when my understanding is all I "know"? I know I sound like a petulant child right now. Just trying to figure it all out....SEE! There it is again! I am trying to figure things out on my own.....ugh is this to be a never ending cycle for me!?!

Shooting Star

I am so restless. I feel as though there is something I should write, but when it comes down to it I am blank. The past few days have been very taxing emotionally. I think I am learning though that the Lord is faithful. When I actually give Him room do move in my life, like I keep asking Him to, He does. I'm not saying I've seen huge progress in the last 48 hours, but I am beginning to experience some peace.

I am so thankful for the women God has placed in my life. The counsel of those such as Melanie K. , Rachel S., Amy D., and too many others to list, is indispensable.

I was listening to Wide Awake today, missing Thursdays at Lucky Lounge with Kara, and I can't get these lyrics out of my brain:

I find myself back where I started.
Too scared to jump, too anxious to sit still.
I'm not ready to let go,
but I will need a patient hand to catch me when I am.

Shooting Star (album: Bigger Than Ourselves) - Wide Awake

The Lord is showing me that His patient hands are there in more ways than one. Not only is He calming me in my times with Him, but He is showing me the people He has placed in my life to physically be His hands.

Mulungu ni wambweno tawi nzonse.
(God is good all the time)